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January 18, 2005
something different
so, last night, in the cathartic course of writing that last entry, i worked, once again, through the bulk of the process of yet another recovery from doubt. the answers were all there, obvious even to me.
today, it continued - comments and phone calls from more friends than i really anticipated read my blog on any given day. and i felt really good, and really stupid. good that i have such friends, good that by and large, though i might struggle with things occasionally, the progress isn't glacial, but mostly positive. stupid in that those doubts recur and i fall prey to them so easily.
at the same time, i realize that having those doubts and questions in my mind keep me at a level of awareness that i appreciate and value, as a human being and certainly as a writer. i'd rather know that side, understand it, and see a better truth than to be ignorant, to have it all come too easily. i'm just fortunate i have so many friends willing to ride out the times of questions and even despair.
so, tonight, i was determined to write something funny, something light. i sat before the computer. i paced. i had a couple of beers. nothing has struck me as writeably funny for a while. new slight fear - what if medication makes me intractably dull? we'll see.
so i turned my attention back to the novel thingy, and there's a new piece to it. look, i'm not so sure i'm on a good track, here. writing dialogue, progressing a story on a large scale feels uncomfortable and awkward and... chunky. i think i tend to be overdramatic, maybe overwrought. so, this sort of writing may not work out for me at all. but maybe it'll end up like a really bad movie that you can't help but stay up and watch just to find out what the hell happens.
Posted by Rob at January 18, 2005 11:54 PM
Comments
How about the petition to stop Ashley Simpson from being able to sing live? Now that's funny.
Posted by: hb at January 19, 2005 03:44 PM