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Zero-Zero-Zero-Destruct-Zero
July 01, 2007
so now, there's just this. just these things i feel and see, and there's nothing else.
i would hit out, if i only knew who to hit.
i want to be in the ring. for all the beatings i took. i want to unleash this all, for once, on someone, i want to swing and connect and make someone feel some measure of all this that i feel.
i sat tonight, heard the band play, heard the words come to me, like they did so long ago. tonight, the music was strong, urgent blues, and the words were, "love is never wrong". they're worthless now. my voice doesn't matter, and it's gone.
there's just this emptiness, and this meaninglessness, and now, just this wanting it all to be over, someway, any way, somehow. i don't want sadness anymore, now or after it's all over. it was just a loss. you let the clock run out. maybe there's another game, maybe there's not, but this one is over. there's nothing else. i lost. there's was something here, but i was weak, and never showed it to you, and now it's gone.
there's nothing left to save. i just want it to end.
Posted by Rob at July 1, 2007 02:19 AM