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survive
November 11, 2005
ha ha! FUNNY! that's what we want!
eating cheese fries off a strippers
ask me about herbalife! find out how i became such a more
on and on we go, where we stop, nobody knows!
aagh. see, i'm out here, i'm out in it, embedded along the front lines. and it's ugly, ugly, ugly.
survival keeps me in it. my father and i are trying to break the sad cycle of my paternal bloodline. live through it. my father is doing well, if he'll do what it takes to stay healthy, stay alive and live to see me not not fail.
we've lived through love and what it leaves, when it leaves. we've lived through seeing dreams slide away. maybe the others felt that too, maybe they didn't, but the difference is, they all died before their time. were they happy? were they ok?
maybe the measure of time is all we have. time increases the odds of a life well lived. i love you and who you are, and that's enough, if you go away tomorrow, or one, ten, twenty years from now.
but let's not let it go so easily. get on the treadmill, dad.
me, i'm staying alive. i have the advantage over you, i've kept my body strong. my heart pumps like it should. but we share the same heart in so many other ways, i think. i'm doing my part, working on my own treadmill, trying to keep my own heart going in its own way.
that other guy did it after his quintuple bypass, and he lost, like, 30-40 pounds. i know i got that competitive streak from you. do it. show me. set the example. keep me alive.
we both have to make this. i need you to do this with me.
Posted by Rob at November 11, 2005 12:13 AM