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the one you haven't heard about
October 31, 2005
i felt something the other night, and it reminded me of something i had felt before. i've been reminded lately of the way it should feel when love is a very real possibility. i see sparks constantly, but very rarely fire. i think i can still tell the difference.
so, i dug up an old notebook, and i still remember the night, when this girl didn't know it was my birthday, and probably didn't know about the things i was feeling that made the night special. she had just come back home from london, and was tired enough that a wagner opera at the performing arts center put her to sleep...
it's a bit sappy. you all know me, so it's no surprise.
clearly, her happy ending was with someone else, and mine was, and is, to have her as a friend, one of the best.
if i hadn't mentioned london, would you have known that this is about you? i hope so. still love you, you know...
march 11, 2000
as sleep caught her, she asked, "can i put my head here?" and she settled close, head on my shoulder, slipping off as wagner's heroes howled despair and courage.
and this, the sweetest weight,
reassuring, soft and solid on my shoulder,
a burden i knew i could bear forever,
and would give anything for the chance to.
i feel it again - have i felt it before?
like your breath, warm and light,
rising
and falling
like hope.
i wish i knew what you feel.
i search for it in your green eyes until
i'm afraid i'll be caught,
that you'll spot the hope and the question in mine.
do you hear what i do in this song?
i hear your voice softly singing,
wishing you sang for me
as i do for you now, driving you home.
do you hear me? do you know?
march 17
yesterday morning, everything, the world, was suddenly sharper.
we walked through the nursery, a secret garden tucked away in a neighborhood on the east side of town. flowers have never glowed like that before - i had never known colors so vivid.
walking beside you, under grey skies, i explored a new world. not hand in hand, yet mind in mind, and... heart in heart? that i don't know.
so today it rains, but i still want to be walking out there beside you, letting the march coolness pour over me, soak through me, as you have, as you do.
Posted by Rob at October 31, 2005 11:58 PM