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August 14, 2005
i'm not so clear about what's been going on the past few weeks, with me, i mean. i've been busy, sure. but there's been some sort of deadness, in which time is lost, and i barely have a recollection of what's happened. i've been happy, i've been not happy. but it's not so much marked by that as just a sort of dullness, as evidenced by the lack of writing.
i've had more moments of the manic brilliance i think i once enjoyed, and i'm always wanting to capture it and get it all down, but it tends to happen talking to people, when i can't stop and chronicle it. when i get back to the computer, i have nothing - a vague memory of having lots to say, but no recollection of the specifics.
i'm trying to work harder at my job, even though i care less than i ever have, and feel increasingly marginalized. i'm still trying to mow through the outside work, and i think the end is in sight.
i've had a hard time caring about running or working out, though i did get out to play ball this week, and today i got back on the bike for the first time in forever, not to get to work, but just to ride.
this is a pointless entry. i'm going to stop now. i'm going to sit here in the dark with the music and try to write something worthwhile.
you'll be able to tell, obviously, how that goes.
Posted by Rob at August 14, 2005 09:25 PM